For those of you that don’t know, I moved to Florida 7 years ago when my son was born. I left all I knew, my friends, a lot of family, a great job, and the house I had lived in for 25 years. My parents moved to Florida first, a few years later I followed. I’ve gone to NJ a few times since then and have had visits from my homies, especially this year. But after 2 long years, I am finally going back to New Jersey to celebrate my wonderful friends, Cheryl and Javonne’s, 50th birthday and 10th year anniversary together. I only bought my ticket less than a week ago, last minute. I didn’t think I was going to be able to attend, because honestly, we’re on a tight budget. But then again, who isn’t? I am tired of missing out on my friends and families big events, big gatherings, milestones, some families’ new babies, etc. I need to get past my fear of spontaneity, because, what is that? Who does that? I’m a mom now, a wife, with a job, and a home and family and pets. But something clicked in me, and my desire to join my friends pushed me and I found a way. I’ll pay for it later, but what matters is that I am living in the moment. I am doing something for me, to nurture not only my friendships but myself and we all deserve that. I am sad to leave my babies, but its only for a few days. My son who is 7 says he is happy for me, and even says he’s happy for me. My 4 year old took it a little harder and she’s going to be a hot mess, but she too is happy for me. My husband is going to miss me, but it’s just a few days. I will face my fear of flying, alone at that, I will face my fear of new things, flying to a new airport, I will fight my anxiety, pray like crazy but in the end, I will have fun and come back anew to continue my motherhood/wifedom journey. I am going to try to relive some stress by going There, instead of being Here. Say a prayer for me please, for safe travels!
